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I've had more FAILURES than successes, that is unless you consider
putting forth a lot of effort and disregarding failure as something bad...Well, then, I've had a lot of success...
I appreciate good health and I enjoy exercising
and eating well...I enjoy pushing myself...And I enjoy rising when I fall...I cherish truth and honesty and perseverence.
My tastes are varied. In almost everything
I do and experience, I have a multi-disciplined approach. I see every situation for it's serious-ness as well as
its hilarious absurdity. Which brings me to sweets: I eat junk food very seldomly, but when I do...Let's
just say I ate 12 GLAZED KRISPY KREME DONUTS in 6 minutes, once. Then I had a creme-filled a few minutes
later because I was "hungry"...
I can
be STOIC AND COMPASSIONATE... I choose to see what good can come out of even the worst of circumstances. But I
can also can be misunderstood for being pessimistic because I see the reality in things--but most don't see the positive
flavor I dose into the formula. The perceptions of others are mostly out of my control. All I can do is be
honest and strive to communicate better...
I can
be a DORK and not have any problems with this...Don't believe what they say about you, good or bad, neither are likely
to be true--YOU know what is true. PEOPLE MATTER--WHAT THEY SAY DOES NOT.
If you discover you don't know yourself--Slow down, eliminate your distractions and sedations
and start asking questions. Serve. Love. Find someone you can trust--REALLY TRUST--(it's not as easy
as it sounds). Ask for their help. Ask, ask, ask. Do it now.
The
most important thing I have learned in the past ten years is to ASK QUESTIONS. It changes everything. For
the good.
I like octupus(s), rats, roaches, crows, rhinos, chameleons,
monkeys, elephants, some birds and most dogs. But the octopus is my current favorite, it is so underrated.
Most people go through life not realizing that THE OCTOPUS IS A MOLLUSK (and that it has a beak)...Look it up...I also love
corn.
I
don't care much for most of the programming on TV...But I do watch some pro football, boxing and mma. I also
watch some non-fiction programming. Biographies are great, every single one of the "NEWS" channels seems to
be a joke (as is a lot of "Reality TV"). The Simpsons and The Office are pretty funny. Spongebob
Squarepants is pretty cool. I like some of the documentary programming on Discovery, National Geographic, HBO, etc...
I'm not one of those "TV is the devil!" types...Frankly, I wish I could watch MORE television.
I believe it's a great tool, but with all the books I want to read and projects I enjoy doing, it's often hard
to justify even the "good" things.
Life is a balancing act. If anything, I run the risk of destroying myself
by doing too many "good" or "righteous" things. Just because it's good, it doesn't make
it right. I have to remind myself all of the time that, "IF YOU SAY YES TO ONE THING, YOU ARE SAYING NO TO SOMETHING
ELSE."
Which brings me to books. Wow. Have you been to a library or a book store lately?
How about the internet? It's a bit overwhelming. I read mostly non-fiction. I believe life inspires
art, therefore I like to go to the source:
SOME OF MY FAVORITE BOOKS INCLUDE
The Road
The Catcher In The
Rye
Oh, The Places You Will Go The Giving Tree Stargirl Go Ask Alice
A Million Little Pieces
The Ragamuffin Gospel Fight Club
Loser
When it comes to music, I like a little
bit of everything (minus country--I can tolerate a little bit of Johnny Cash). I prefer film scores and until I was
in college, it was the most common music of any kind that I owned...
Some of
the musicians I like are; Simon And Garfunkel, The Red Hot Chili Peppers, System of a Down, Linkin Park. Actually, until
iTunes, I could hardly find an album by ANYONE where I liked more than 1 or 2 songs...
In general, music that moves me is usually dramatic and powerful...Very repetitive, moody. I love a
"wordless choir" as often used in film scores... When I hear the right music--I see pictures and they do not
stop...
SOME OF MY FAVORITE FILMS
INCLUDE
Rocky
Fight Club Forrest Gump
Seven Dumb
& Dumber
Sllingblade
American Beauty
Gummo Into the Wild
Starman Napoleon
Dynamite
Buffalo 66
Falling Down
Planes, Trains & Automobiles More (animated short) The
Corporation (documentary) The
Way of the Gun
Bigger, Stronger, Faster (documentary)
ANY MANTRAS?
Follow truth, not the world. Be yourself, not like everyone else. Do the hard thing and
EMBRACE HOPE--NOT FEAR... When you do these things you will see thatLOVE DOES CONQUER ALL -- understanding this will
change your life forever.
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WHAT ARE YOU ?
I find a great deal of satisfaction from being an agent
of "change". I like the word, "catalyst"...then again, a catalyst doesn't change--And I do. A rebellious
changing catalyst? I've met a few people who have played the role of catalyst in my life and just recently realized
it's a lot of what I'm all about...Whether it be provoking thought, making laughter, inspiring someone to stand up for themselves,
love themselves, love someone else or just recognize that they have value in who they uniquely are...BEING YOURSELF IS AN
ACCOMPLISHMENT IN THIS AGE OF ROBOTIC MARKETPLACE CONFORMISM...
I cherish instilling hope in the fearful,
steering the lost through crisis, or helping a giant fat person lose a few pounds (or a 100). This has become even more
rewarding because I believe it falls within my purpose, which has been made clear to me. Assisting someone in an emotional crisis and helping them
step toward, peace, sobriety, relief, and purposeful life is a passion that often involves relating to others through my own
shortcomings and failures. Is there nothing more exciting than a transformation or a resurrection?...I'm a junkie
for these things...
HOW DO OTHERS DESCRIBE YOU?
HOW DO YOU DESCRIBE YOU?
Cavalier - Obtuse - Demonstrative - Wry
Verbal - Compulsive - Honest - Analytical
Passionate - Sincere -
Trustworthy - Hopeful
Relentless - Hyper
- Logical - Inspiring
Stubborn - Silly - Calm - Weird
MY "DAY" JOB "THE TRUTH" is simply
a lesson learned. I am no better than anyone else. I am logical and solution oriented. I want to be compassionate
and good. Telling the truth works. I can grow and choose more efficiently
when I'm not lying to the world...Or myself.
And that's what this is all about...My unusual job...More accurately, it's a rank and file job (that happens
to be very interesting and stereotypical) which I carry it out in an unorthodox fashion.
I'm actually successful. More accurately again, I succeed at preventing failure in the occupation...I am an unusual
individual who does the job in an unusual way.
I tolerate and guide people.
I assist those who are lost and confused and have been living poorly programmed lives. There are times when I try to deter people from killing themselves--Or me.
The definitions of right and wrong appear to be very blurry to most of the people I meet throughout my work
day. Some willingly choose bad because it feels good... There are other times that I get to intervene in a crisis and illustrate to people how it is that they matter...Even
if it's only to me. I am sincere.
Some of the best work I've done happens because I am honest
and deliver the truth. I deliver unwelcome news on a daily basis. This delivery backfires when
the person I am dealing with perceives that I am not being honest. This rarely happens. Love does conquer all.
Not gooey-goo love, but true compassion. The golden rule is gold for a reason.
This mis-perception can and is usually rectified. I express love in places most people
feel is unwarranted. If I ended up where
I work... I
want to meet me... To thank me... To test me...
I try to live an uncensored
life--This evolves from true 'liberation'. It is really all there is, because
after you grab yourself with a pair of tweezers and crawl under the shadow of a microscope--you get to see some of what God sees.
At the moment you experience this, you realize the secrets and the hiding are uselsess...Pointless. Life stealing. Wrong.
Which is exactly why I'm here.
I was recently asked,
WHO WOULD YOU LIKE TO MEET?
"MY ANSWER"
A dozen grapefruits and their smell.
My daughter's smile.
The hurt, getting well.
The high bar, without denial.
The daily hand from the Lord.
A purposeful life.
His bloody gift I cannot afford.
The smooth fur on my dog's back.
Love...with my wife.
The mirror before I attack.
WHO DO YOU ADMIRE--WHO ARE YOUR
HEROES?
I 'm not sure about heroes...Or awards...Or lop-sided recognition. I struggle and
go back and forth on these issues...Either there are no such things as heroes or every single person is a hero...I haven't
figured this out yet--But I'm pretty sure it's one of those two things. The reality is that most of us had to
rely on someone to accomplish whatever it is we've accomplished. I suppose I feel that "heroes" are those
people who do the right thing regardless of the consequences (or accolades). We play the hand we're dealt with honesty, integrity, ferocity and most of all LOVE. Fairness is
pretty much a silly concept. Ask yourself, "What is fair?" The pursuit of comfort is pretty much the
same. Satisfaction in service, growth, purpose and peace...Those are the goals.
If you have to push me as to who I admire for how they've handled things, here is a short
list: Jesus, my wife, my daughter, Kurt Warner, Walter Payton, Lyle Alzado, Warrick Dunn, James Braddock, Buster Douglas,
Mickey Ward, Mark David Allen and my dogs. Why so many athletes? Jeez, I suppose that's pretty sad.
Or is it?... I also admire
anyone else that has lost it all, admitted their faults, and risen from the ashes of their own self destruction...And
then there are those who've wanted to rise up and tried with all of their might and failed boldly. There's
a special place for those people, too. I am first in line.
THE
FINAL QUESTION Q: If you take one item on a trip--what is it? A: Rubber Tomahawk.
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